Sunday, July 31, 2005.
Evanescence - Anywhere
Dear my love, haven't you wanted to be with me
And dear my love, haven't you longed to be free
I can't keep pretending that I don't even know you
And at sweet night, you are my own
Take my hand
*
[CHORUS:]
We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the morning light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where love is more than just your name
*
I have dreamt of a place for you and I
No one knows who we are there
All I want is to give my life only to you
I've dreamt so long I cannot dream anymore
Let's run away, I'll take you there
*
We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the mornings light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where no one needs a reason
*
Forget this life Come with me
Don't look back you're safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one's left to stop you
*
Forget this life Come with me
Don't look back you're safe now
unlock your heart
drop your guard
no one's left to stop you now
-This Is My deathWish 2:25 PM -
Saturday, July 30, 2005.
Hello People. Hope alls fine. Thats because im not. Woke up at 8+ to meet fau for a minute, then off i went to slumber again. Woke up again at 12.30 man. Really thought i had a good night rest and sleep, but suddenly and violently it changes for the worst. cough worsening and had a splitting headache. And body ache too. Planned to drop by fendi's place to have his comp fixed, but due to major problems with my health, he decided to come over with his comp instead. What a relieve that he understands my situation.
Slack around with him for a while, catching up with stuff. Then without hesitation, started on my job. Took a while to get his comp fixed, but hey, its ok now. And i learn something to hasten his comp. Now its better then the previous system. Phew, im still under learning, and hack i learn something today. So people, drop me a msg if u want your comp to be fixed. charges will be imposed depending on the type of repair i must do. Hahaaaa!
After all that job, begining to feel so tired and exhausted. its like i just came back from a 2.4km run. hahahha! maybe his comp effected me. Slack around chatting with ishak, fau and iskandar for a while. Man i feel so beaten. Then i realized that i had a job to do, again. Need to finish it in time. Shit! so, with what remaining strength i have left, did a couple more drawings, and now its done! finally! but still a long way to go.
Now im updating. Hehehe
Alright2, maybe i think too much about others that im down with the sickness again. Man how i wish i could see shell, my lil sis face for shes like my healing station. Her face and her laughter could anytime cure me. Hehehe! shit! I MISS YOU! but hey, to tell the truth, i miss everybody. Just wanna have a gathering, or some sort of activities together. Haiz. Fau, Shell, Farid, Asyraf, Radhi, Celine, Ishak, miss you all! And hey, i cant wait for tomorrow! ill update ok. Hehehehe.
Shell, even though we chat at msn, it still different from seeing you in person. Its time for your drumming carreer to move a step further. Just say when and i will gladly go. By hook or by crook. Have you been practicing?? Hahaha. Hope so. Well fau, im trying real hard to complete what i promise to do, but hey, i guess i can't do it alone. I can't fulfill my promise. IM so sorry. Hope you will give a helping hand ok. Im not asking much do I?? Man! i miss you too. seeing you, in the morning is like seeing an angel standing outside my window. Hahaha. With all the lights and stuff, adding to the effects. Hahhaha! I hope you people miss me too!(Just like the song huh... Hahaha) So far fetched! I realize now my time is short, so im not afraid to express my feelings anymore. Just want you people to know how much you all meant to me.
signing off,
Faizal
-This Is My deathWish 12:21 AM -
Thursday, July 28, 2005.
Hello again people. Me, here updating my lovely blog. Hear the song?? touching isnt it?? Hahhaha. Well loved it so much that ive decided to post it as my blog song. To me its better than the original. Thats what i call originality!! So much emotions in it man. Hahhaa. (Well you did lied to me.... hmmmm.... its ok.....)Anyway, i had a great time today. Ok here it goes. wake up at 8, reached school at 9. Cool. And the teacher is so caring and understanding. Hehehehe. Slack around doing nothing and hearing songs to past the time. Do some project, to be submitted at the end of the class. Did it half-heartedly, and hand in. Shit i should have put in more effort in it. Now i feel so stupid. Must do stuff more seriously.eat Nasi ayam at the canteen, my only meal for the day. after all that, its time for me to head down to non other then our band room. Hhahaha! chat for a while discussing about stuff while waiting for a band to get ready and perform for us. Hehehehe, but to me, really, honestly, it sucks! hahahha. Hate it man! but hey whatever lah. HahahhaHey its not just me man! soon, my one of my friend got bored too. so we decided to leave them and head to the next class. luckily this class didnt turn out bad. The whole of the class time, 6 of my friends did the only thing we are so capable of. Playing game! we played rainbow 6, a multiplayer game! cool game man!! its like cs, with a twist this time. you dont go around killing your friends, but instead killing terrorist in the game. Cool shit man!at 4, its time for us to head home. reached home at 5, online and i did the one thing ive never done before. just as msn online, i switched off the monitor, change to home clothes and sleep. hahahha! woke up at 6 with a lots of people pm me. Answered some and close some.Hehhehe. thats me alright!at 8 rad and ishak and fau, reached here to take their cpu home. But that isnt the end of my day. Me and fau went to watch the island! cool movie to watch. At first you wont understand a single bit of the movie, but as the movie progresses, you will slowly understands it. But still, the movie will leave you with one question in mind. Whose in the right? to save the clones, or to save the original human being?? isnt trying to help right? hmmmm. See it to get your answers. Well after that,took the same bus to send fau home and i took the taxi to head home myself. cool. Now updating my blog. hehehehenowadays, i just feel so lonely. miss shell so much, and now knowing that she got probs at home just makes my heart go berserk. Shit. I guess i really need to spend quality time together with you. Even though i am being accompanied by fau rad and ishak this past few days, still i feel so hopeless not seeing my lil sis. Man! Be strong ok gerl!And fau, thankz for accompanying me. I now feel the care, appreciation and love from my lil bro. Thankz. I hope it will last bro, for you and shell are everything to me now. Dont know why, just miss your face whenever i didnt see you for 1 day. Maybe im just afraid of losing you too much. And dont you ever thing negatively about me ok. its just that i dont have a lil bro or sis. And now that i know i have, i just wanna love you guys forever. Thanks people. and to the rest, rad, ishak, asyraf and celine, dont you ever think that i dont love you all ok. if i dont, i wont be doing stuff and taking care of you all just like my own. Remember not to think negatively about me.Alright till here guys. Take care!signing off,Faizal
-This Is My deathWish 2:52 AM -
Tuesday, July 26, 2005.
Hello people! Hope alls well. Im good too. Haahahaha. Had a tiring but fun day for me. School starts at 8, ended up waking up at 10. Got on my gears and off to school. Hahahha. School?? Nah! I didnt go to school today. Instead went to j.e library to do some art thingy as school today sucks to the core.Did a couple of coloring and had lunch at long john silver, alone. You know what guys, sometimes its cool to hang out with just yourself. And i did that just now. Had my space and time to rethink and re-arrange my life. Give it a thought on how to handle my stupid emotions, Being the not-so-sensitive side of me back. And yeah, i manage to do it with some guides from books i chose to read up just now. Its cool you know. I recommend you guys to have a time for yourself. well at 2, took the bus home. Upon reaching my bus stop, saw radhi, asyraf and haizad. Haizad gave a wonderful respect! well thankz Haizad. Really respectful of you! Chat for a while with them and soon their bus came.Hang around at home for a while, Chat with iskandar and others while waiting for radhi and asyraf to reach here as radhi needs my help to repair his com. They reached here at 6, and without hesitation, started cleaning his comp! its in a mess man!! totally hectic inside!! Its like all the intestines is in bad shape! So with my expertise, clean it up and repair it. Cool! and i did a wonderful job! Hehehehe. Later Ishak and Fau came by too! Cool! had a great time joking around with them. they are like lively all of a sudden! But hack, Its fun man!How i miss my lil brothers!! its like so good to finally spend time with them again! Cool!At 11, they decided to call it a day, but not fau. we went for dinner at a 24 hr coffeeshop. Both had chicken chop. Chat for a couple of minutes, deciding what to do later. Nice chat with him though. Been Along time since i had that type of chat with him!And guess what guys! i send fau home. So what the big thing here?? hahhaha. You see, 99 has only 1 interchange. So its a roundabout. took the bus from one side, and after 1 round, alight at the opposite bus stop! feel so stupid man!! hahaha. But the sake of my lovely Bro, I did that. Hahahaha. Ok that the only thing i did today. See ya guys!!!signing off,Faizal
-This Is My deathWish 3:40 PM -
Monday, July 25, 2005.
Hello again people. Me here updating this lovely blog of mine. So wanna know what i did the whole day?? Really?? Hahahahaha. As usual, work up at 12, took a nice warm bath, then having my so-call-lunch. online for a while, then off to sleep again. Too sleepy to even do anything today as i slept at 9 in the morning, cracking my head editting this lovely blog. Got too hooked by it man. Like fau says, Its really fun to have a blog. Hehehehe. At around 3, awaken by children yelling and screaming outside the corridor. So i decided to stay awake afterall. But guess what! I was so bored to death that i decided to ask fau and shell out to catch a movie. But it seems both are tight on bugget. So planned to go queensway instead. But in the end, everything was canceled as all was too tired i guess. Me too actually. Slacking around at home, and guess what guys! I went for a jog. A 2.4 km jog. Shit my stamina is depleting rapidly man.
Home, slack around like one hell of a stupid human being. Imprisoned in a cell. Started chatting with a sis that ive not been chatting for quite sometime. And hey, her son and daughters, were all like PLEASE ABANG! COME HERE! WE MISS YOU! So without further hesitation, get on my gears and off i went.
Reached there around 7. Once i step inside, The 4 off them suddenly just jump out of nowhere, all hugging me. Guess they miss me a lot ya. And yeah, i totally miss them too especially wawan (nickname). hes just 9 this year but hes really like my son. He's aren't letting me go for the whole time. Shit!! Damn! Really i miss him too!! if only im not schooling today, i would have brought him home with me for thats what he always wanted. But i guess luck isnt on his side. But i promise to take him home whenever i had the chance. Time pass so quickly, and hack its time for me to head home. Really hard for me to let him go actually. But well, I could do nothing right. Hahaha! Wawan, i promise to take you with me whenever i had the chance ok. A PROMISE!
Reached home, chat with shell, asking her for a few help with my blog, and now im here updating. Damn im so tired today. School starts at 8 and as the usual me, will reach there at 9. Its a confirm for me. Hehehe.
To all my brothers and sisters, I miss you all very much! Hope to see you all soon. And to radhis band members, Faus band members and the third band, hope you all get into the yuhua idol! hopes up alright!
signing off,
Faizal
-This Is My deathWish 1:50 AM -
Sunday, July 24, 2005.
Hello People. Hope alls well. Thankz for dropping by my blog. My saturday was spent well i guess. Ended up sleeping the whole day. Not sure why, but my body starts to ache to the very inch of my bones. Hahaha. Wake up, Edit somemore to this blog, eat, sleep again, then its chatting all the way.
Later around 9 in the night, a friend of mine who just came back from camp, asked me out. Woohoooo!~ Its playing pool! Man i miss playing pool with him! A lot of challenges. I lose and win some and its vice versa. Ended up playing till like 12 or 1. We played like hack, ignoring time. Around 11, hes brother drop by to join us. Shit! his brothers daughter, is really cute! feel like hugging her! hehehehe. Thats why we played like 3 hours or so. Too engrossed in it I guess. And guess what people, 3 chinese guys tried to challenge his bro to a game, each. Its funny though as they look pretty confident, but ended up losing all 3 games. Haahahaha! alright! its time i sharpen my skills! keep losing to him man!! just wanna be like him!!!!
After all that, we have a light snack, Then i decided to drop by shells house. Its been too long since the last time i met her. So MISS HER! Well, we chatted for a while and having her help me with some blogging stuff. Thankz again. I think im getting the hang on this alredy. But without your help, i wouldnt be creating this lovely blog of mine. Heehehe. Then went home straight after all that. Tried out all the things i just learn from her, and hey, im so good in this! Hehehehe. No offense.
Anyway, I miss you all pretty badly right now. Man How i wish i could see you all~! Take care people!
signing off,
Faizal
-This Is My deathWish 2:22 PM -
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